Friday, June 27, 2003
Thick pearly teardrops brimmed in my eyes
Colourful prisms begun to rise
My lip trembles, I bite it in fear
That someone would see, that someone would be here
Watching me with their gleeful expressions
Gloating over my sheer depression
Loud angry shouts rung out in my head
As I thought about those words, those things that you said
Feeling crestfallen, nonplussed, bewildered
I was unable to escape, and silently concluded
My source of misery has always been you
It's hard to accept it but it's always been true
And there's nothing I can do
Except believe it, and forget about you
It may seem impossible, but I knew I could make it
It may seem outrageous, but I knew I could fit
And try to climb up once more from this fall
Climb up once more and try to stand tall
Throw everything all behind, and try to neglect
Those words you told me, those things that you said.
Forgive me, dear, it's been hard for me
But I wish to break free from this misery
So just leave me alone and let me think
How you hurt me so badly and made my heart sink.
| CC | | repulsed and ripped | 27/6/2003
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Wednesday, June 25, 2003
Looking around
Trying to appreciate everything around me
Everything's so profound
I don't think it's even possible for me
Feeling inconsolable
Like everything good has just vanished
Feeling intolerable
Like my reputation's tarnished
Nothing just seems
Like itself anymore
This used to be a beautiful world
Now it's nothing I can ignore
Wondering if this
Is a penalty
Some penalty to try and
Cure this vunerability
It's impossible to trust
If I have to, if I must
Say I have lost every single thing
Say how my heart is truly aching
All hope seems to have gone
Now the truth really dawns
That I am nothing to anyone
That I'm responsible for what I've done.
| CC | confused and dejected. 25/6/2003
One of the owners had inspiration at 4:54 AM