Friday, April 11, 2003
Those illusions weren't real
Those lies weren't true
Those scenes were merely there
To keep me far from blue
I never thought you would cause
So much hurt to me
You just seem so far away
Too far for me to see
Everytime I see you once
My heart will start to break
How many times has my heart broken
And torn for your sake?
My mind is in a whirl
I'm just so confused
Does walking away and not caring
Lets you get excused?
I guess I misjudged everything
I'm in a dilemma
I don't know what I am doing
I'm struck with paranoia
I know I'm in no position
To do anything at all
But does that mean you can just stand there
And not save me from my fall?
Perhaps to you it's a yes
But I don't know how you think
I'm not you, I tell myself
But you're pushing me to the brink
How I wish I could just hear your voice
Hear you speak the words
But I'm hoping against hope
All the memories of you are getting blurred...
=CC= 11/4/2003
Dan since you write who it is inspired by, I shall write it too.
Inspired by my MSN username. Clay and Carmen lols. =winks to Dan=
One of the owners had inspiration at 6:30 AM
Monday, April 07, 2003
Suddenly everything
Is crashing down on me
Suddenly everything
Doesn't turn out perfectly
Suddenly everything
Is going against me
Making me upset
Treating me cruelly
It was all okay before
I was supposedly happy
Then this disappointment comes
Rushing over, drowning me
You just told me what you had to
Then you turned away
You didn't see me hurt
You didn't hear what I had to say
Since I-have-no-idea when
Things never went my way
Grief, melancholy, dejection
Defeats me day by day
I always tell myself
To hang on in there come what may
But I can't listen to myself
Happiness never seems to stay
I don't see anything
That I can do
I can't remember anything
That I once knew
Won't you help me
Am I that hopeless to you?
After all I'm not as useless
I can always start anew
But who am I faking?
What can help me through?
It doesn't look like something can
I'll have to remain feeling blue
=CC= 8/4/2003
Inspired by Dan.
One of the owners had inspiration at 8:26 PM