Wednesday, August 06, 2003
Why must you leave?
Leaving us to grieve and struggle
Abandoning us here and
Hurting us so badly?
Why can't you just stay?
Stay here forever
And spare us from this misery
And this never-ending flow of tears?
Why can't you understand?
It's so many hearts you're breaking
And how much lengths we'll go to
To make you remain?
But I'm sure you know
That in our shattered hears
We're already missing you so.
Why must you go?
CC || Devastated || 5/8/2003 || Chinese lesson XD
For Mrs Koh.
Yes I know it sucks.
But I wrote it in about, 10 mins? O.o
And I don't usually write non-rhyming poems.
If you even call that a poem. -.-
It just seems like... paragraphs of words, that's all.
Ah wells.
Whatever.
One of the owners had inspiration at 3:05 AM
Tuesday, July 15, 2003
Imaginary spectrums swirled before my eyes
I was screaming, yelling, but no one heard my cries
Anger pierced through me like a flaming arrow
I could feel nothing but pain and sorrow
Something inside me triggered a tear
Something ripped me apart, left me in fear
Happiness, enjoyment, it didn't exist
Although it was these feelings I dearly missed
Unaware of my true emotions and thoughts
I tried hard to think, to suppress it, I fought
All feeling in me was long gone and lost
Hurt rushed over me, so this was how much it cost
To fall in love with someone I could never ever get
Sometimes I really wish we had never ever met
Dejection and melancholy were further increasable
So this is what it feels like to be invisible.
Invisible to you.
CC || Exasperated and lost || 15/07/2003 21.15pm
One of the owners had inspiration at 6:27 AM
Friday, June 27, 2003
Thick pearly teardrops brimmed in my eyes
Colourful prisms begun to rise
My lip trembles, I bite it in fear
That someone would see, that someone would be here
Watching me with their gleeful expressions
Gloating over my sheer depression
Loud angry shouts rung out in my head
As I thought about those words, those things that you said
Feeling crestfallen, nonplussed, bewildered
I was unable to escape, and silently concluded
My source of misery has always been you
It's hard to accept it but it's always been true
And there's nothing I can do
Except believe it, and forget about you
It may seem impossible, but I knew I could make it
It may seem outrageous, but I knew I could fit
And try to climb up once more from this fall
Climb up once more and try to stand tall
Throw everything all behind, and try to neglect
Those words you told me, those things that you said.
Forgive me, dear, it's been hard for me
But I wish to break free from this misery
So just leave me alone and let me think
How you hurt me so badly and made my heart sink.
| CC | | repulsed and ripped | 27/6/2003
One of the owners had inspiration at 4:05 AM
Wednesday, June 25, 2003
Looking around
Trying to appreciate everything around me
Everything's so profound
I don't think it's even possible for me
Feeling inconsolable
Like everything good has just vanished
Feeling intolerable
Like my reputation's tarnished
Nothing just seems
Like itself anymore
This used to be a beautiful world
Now it's nothing I can ignore
Wondering if this
Is a penalty
Some penalty to try and
Cure this vunerability
It's impossible to trust
If I have to, if I must
Say I have lost every single thing
Say how my heart is truly aching
All hope seems to have gone
Now the truth really dawns
That I am nothing to anyone
That I'm responsible for what I've done.
| CC | confused and dejected. 25/6/2003
One of the owners had inspiration at 4:54 AM
Monday, June 02, 2003
I've become mad
I've become crazy
I've become more stressed
Though I am so lazy
I've since slacked so much
As the days go by
I've since been lured
To make myself cry
I spend so much time
Doing other things
When I am supposed
To be studying
I don't bother about this
I don't bother about that
Am I going to live life this way
Or am I stark raving mad?
I think it should be the latter
Isn't that so obvious?
I don't know how I am going to survive
I'm totally clueless
I don't carry out my duties
I just shrug them off
Now how am I to defend myself
When others scoff?
I try my best to change
Into the old, studious me
But I really can't do it
Can you stop forcing me?
I seriously don't know
What's got into me
Perhaps all this is
Just imaginary
Ever since January the second
Two thousand and three
I have been so slack
I have been so naughty
So here comes the reason
My mind is in such a whirl
This is because
I am in St Nicholas Girls'.
=CC= 2/6/2003
Oh I am so lame.
This is such a stupid poem.
What am I trying to do.
=screams=
One of the owners had inspiration at 4:50 AM
Wednesday, May 28, 2003
The truth is always filled with hurt
Why can't I hear a lie instead?
Reality is always so cruel
Is that why I'm so afraid?
I want to scream
I want to break free
From all the fake fantasies
From this never-ending web of misery
But what is holding me back?
What is torturing me so badly?
I just want to escape from this
From this cruel, ruthless reality
The world is just an illusion
A perfect painted picture
But the outside does not matter
Because the real one is simply bitter
People make it sound so easy
But if it is why can't I accomplish it?
Why can't I just do what I say
And forget everything that easily?
So why am I feeling this way
If the world were really perfect
Why do I feel it is not
Why am I trapped in this conflict?
Please spare me from all this unhappiness
Please spare me from all this pain
Give me a chance to prove myself
And let me try again
Isn't there another way
To let me live my life
Isn't there anything I could do
To end this heated strife?
Sometimes its just easier said than done
It's just really difficult
To get over it completely
Can't you see how hard I've struggled?
I'm lost
In this world of torture and dismay
I suddenly feel a need
A need to run away.
=Co-written by CC and Danielle= 28/5/2003.
Danielle should know who it is inspired by. XP.
Odd verses by me, even verses by Danielle.
One of the owners had inspiration at 3:54 AM
Saturday, May 10, 2003
Why does love always have to hurt so much?
Why does love always have to cringe from my touch?
What exactly is bringing me all these pain
And what exactly by doing that can love gain?
Who is that person behind the scenes
Masterminding all these, being so mean?
Who is trying to ruin our love
What is their purpose, and what does it serve?
Where has that feeling disappeared to?
Won't someone just tell me what I'm supposed to do?
Where has our love been all these years?
Why doesn't all those questions you asked have an answer?
How did you manage to hurt me so deeply?
How did our love suddenly drop so steeply?
What exactly made me act so rash?
What the heck almost made my heart crash?
When can we get together once more?
When can we remain together once and for all?
What oh what is love doing to me
How can I heal, to see more clearly?
Why oh why is love doing this
I can't take it anymore its too big a risk
Please tell me, someone, if you own the key
The key to happiness, to fill me with glee
=CC= 10/5/2003
Inspired by you three, written for you three.
Please please please be happy again.
And understand that love will always hurt.
If not then it's not called love anymore.
One of the owners had inspiration at 12:16 AM
Monday, May 05, 2003
Hmm. Danielle, IHD [International Hugging Day] was suggested by me.
=CC=
One of the owners had inspiration at 4:52 AM
We used to be such good friends
But now we've drifted apart
Very soon we'll be resorting
To breaking each other's hearts
Our friendship was left abandoned
The trust was thrown aside
The honesty was destroyed
Our souls needed a guide
This seems to take eternity
Will we remain like this forever?
When do you think we'll patch up?
I think a long time later
Perhaps even never.
=CC= 5/5/2003
A short little paragraph here.
Though of the first verse in class.
Yepps.
Realised I went too long without writing a poem so here is one. (:
One of the owners had inspiration at 4:51 AM
Friday, April 11, 2003
Those illusions weren't real
Those lies weren't true
Those scenes were merely there
To keep me far from blue
I never thought you would cause
So much hurt to me
You just seem so far away
Too far for me to see
Everytime I see you once
My heart will start to break
How many times has my heart broken
And torn for your sake?
My mind is in a whirl
I'm just so confused
Does walking away and not caring
Lets you get excused?
I guess I misjudged everything
I'm in a dilemma
I don't know what I am doing
I'm struck with paranoia
I know I'm in no position
To do anything at all
But does that mean you can just stand there
And not save me from my fall?
Perhaps to you it's a yes
But I don't know how you think
I'm not you, I tell myself
But you're pushing me to the brink
How I wish I could just hear your voice
Hear you speak the words
But I'm hoping against hope
All the memories of you are getting blurred...
=CC= 11/4/2003
Dan since you write who it is inspired by, I shall write it too.
Inspired by my MSN username. Clay and Carmen lols. =winks to Dan=
One of the owners had inspiration at 6:30 AM
Monday, April 07, 2003
Suddenly everything
Is crashing down on me
Suddenly everything
Doesn't turn out perfectly
Suddenly everything
Is going against me
Making me upset
Treating me cruelly
It was all okay before
I was supposedly happy
Then this disappointment comes
Rushing over, drowning me
You just told me what you had to
Then you turned away
You didn't see me hurt
You didn't hear what I had to say
Since I-have-no-idea when
Things never went my way
Grief, melancholy, dejection
Defeats me day by day
I always tell myself
To hang on in there come what may
But I can't listen to myself
Happiness never seems to stay
I don't see anything
That I can do
I can't remember anything
That I once knew
Won't you help me
Am I that hopeless to you?
After all I'm not as useless
I can always start anew
But who am I faking?
What can help me through?
It doesn't look like something can
I'll have to remain feeling blue
=CC= 8/4/2003
Inspired by Dan.
One of the owners had inspiration at 8:26 PM